Wandering in the forest

Here l am 37 years old. Wandering in the forest. No plan, no vision not even aware of my own ambitions. Growing up l had a lot of dreams and one of them being a very successful person. Yes l passed my ALevel exams and went to one of the best Universities in my country and did Sociology. Due to to socio economic challenges in my home country l never got a job. A few years later l got married to a handsome and supportive husband. We started a business together and it was doing well until the time there was inflation in our country. Overnight we lost thousands of our hard earned money in our bank account. It was a very difficult time for us but by the grace of God we managed to pull through. It's not easy to lose something you have worked so much hard for in a jiffy but what can we do, such is life.

My husband is a teacher by profession by the way. After the loss we decided to migrate to another country. He got a job and helped me start another business. I opened a restaurant and it operated for about four years. At first the business was good but later on things started to go south. My husband advised me to close the business but due to my stubborness l did not. I kept on hoping that business will get better. That's one of the major mistakes l made in my life and up to now, l regret it. By the time l decided to close the business it was too late, l was already sinking in debt. In a nutshell poor me was left holding the baby and the baby was naked.

I was really heartbroken and decided to take a break in business. When we migrated before l started the business, l also took time to study System Application Products in Data Processing and just like the degree, l never got a chance to use my qualifications. I also applied for the necessary work visa so that l will be able to work but my applications were rejected. Now l am back at the drawing board and am lost.

My husband as always is now asking me to draft a business proposal so that he can fund me. I am grateful of course fo his support but at the moment l am a lost soul. I do not even know what business l want to do or what exactly l want to do with my life. I fee like all the ambitions and dreams are gone🤷